Everyone gets those moments when they just get upset for no absolute reason at all, right? That's how I feel right now. Sad, depressed, down, whatever you want to call it. Maybe I'm just tired. I sleep a lot at night, but it's never well; I toss and turn, take Bonnie out, wake from bad dreams...you name it, it's probably been happening to me. I shouldn't be so restless, though. It's not like my life is very difficult. Yes, I work around 30 hours per week, and I'm taking calculus this semester, but neither of those result in being overly stressed or anxious.
Oh, to be blogging again. I'm not sure how this will turn out, but I'm thinking it will be positive for me. A different sort of outlet to just let go in, and let my emotions run free. I'm positive my boyfriend will enjoy me being less emotional and moody. Moving over 2,000 miles away from home kind of does that to a girl though. I haven't hung out with anyone besides my boyfriend and his family since I've gotten here four months ago. Not that it's a bad thing, I love them all; however, variety in friends has always been soothing for me. Since high school I've always had plenty of friends. There's of course been the few extremely close ones, but having different groups of friends helps a person to let different emotions and feelings out in numerous places.
Talking to my mom and grandma almost every day helps me a lot, and them as well. Plus my best friend and I text almost constantly. We do have conflicting schedules at times, but we make it work. I wouldn't be able to make it through this big change in my life without those three ladies. They mean the world to me. But so does my boyfriend. Which is most of the reason why I'm so far away from my hometown. Don't get me wrong, I love everything about the west coast, that I've seen so far anyway, but without him coming here, I would have never known what it was like in the big city. Well, I may have known some day, but being here now feels right. Every single time I realize I'm here for good, I smile. It's so different here. Oddly, I don't usually miss home. Sure, I miss my family and friends, but not the place as much.
This new adventure is fascinating, and I love every moment of it. I love my job out here, I'm back in school, and I've got goals for my future. Our future. (I've got to try to think of "us," not just "me." But it's a hard concept for anyone to grasp.)
I feel better now. Calmer, anyhow. This is going to be a great way of expression.
Tune in for more in the crazy life I lead soon.
:)
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