Remembering

You always said you'd show me everything...what it was like here. You'd show me the way. Take me out. Show me off. Give me everything I could ever dream of. Hike and bike and show me unbelievable things. It was to be a new life, a new experience, a new journey. But together. Most days I feel far apart. We're good, but not great. There's so much out there, and I dream of seeing it with you. I dream those dreams you told me once before. I dream those dreams everyday. I hope to come home to flowers. I hope to have the door opened for me. I hope to be held when I just need to cry. Maybe I've just got too much hope. Maybe I've put too much hope in you. Maybe I've seen too many movies. Maybe those things don't happen anymore. Maybe they shouldn't happen. Maybe I'm just all alone in this world. BUT NO! These things do happen! Love and romance is real. People do care for one another and want to share the world together. It does happen. It should happen. Everyone deserves it. So why not me? I do. And I want it. And I shouldn't settle for less. I want it all, and I can have it. I should have it. I want to be loved like I love. I need to be loved like I love. My love is strong and endless. And yours should be too. It was once before. It couldn't have all been a lie. I used to feel so much more love. Now where has it gone?

Summertime, here I come!

Yep! It's that fantastic time again! Spring semester over, summer class starting soon, and the only place I want to be is by the water and in the sun!

I got all A's again this semester, which keeps up my 4.0 gpa from South Mountain CC. I was really worried about it because I was struggling with chemistry towards the end of the semester, but somehow I pulled through! I've got my cultural online class starting soon...I'm not actually sure when..I need to stop being lazy and look it up haha.

As for work, I've been closing a lot lately, which I really love! However, I'm in the red on our scorecards, which could be really bad...if I can't get my numbers up, then my closing shifts could be taken away, which would also result in less money. No bueno! So I've been getting tips from other servers on how to improve. Guess we'll have to wait and see how it goes! I'm confident I can get back in the yellow, and soon in the green after!

The first couple days I was out of school and didn't have to work were pretty weird. I've always got something to do, so not having anything important to do threw me off. You know when you're so busy that you have no time for anything, you could think of a million things you'd rather be doing? Well none of those things were interesting those first few days. But I'm enjoying the time off now, for sure! It's great to catch up on reading, or shows I've been wanting to watch, or really just laying around enjoying myself! Summertime fun :)

Well I'm off to get some food in my belly, and spend the day with Vincent :) Bloggers, have a lovely day!